I remember as a kid being completely out of control. My emotions were an untamed beast. I had endless amounts of energy I am certain I drove my mother to insanity (so, so sorry, mother dear). During one of said episodes my mom would stop me, grab my face in her hands so I couldn’t look away and say “Just stop! Look at me!” At least that is how I remember it. It was most likely followed by “go to your room” or something like it.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus…
When I left my job 5 months ago I was worn out spiritually, physically, mentally, financially and every other ‘-ally’ there is. I wrestled with the fact I didn’t have something else lined up. In the balance was either stay and continue feeling utterly miserable or go and risk everything. A rule of thumb I try to use in life is to move from a place of strength to another place of strength. To leave a job with no alternative seemed downright stupid. How was that moving to a place of strength?
The Lord challenged my thinking and said “Elissa, I AM your strength. Make your decision and trust me. I will lead you whatever you decide. I’ve got this!” So I left my job. Oh what joy! Immediately that burden lifted and I felt peace.
…look full in His wonderful face…
I was continually reassured God was in this . On occasion I would find myself looking at my circumstances and felt out of control. I would try too hard, do anything and everything I could do to fix the situation, all to no avail. In the latest of those instances, something truly remarkable happened. I felt the Lord grab my face with His hands so I was looking directly in His eyes. “Just stop,” He said and smiled. “I’ve got this! Let it go. Keep your eyes on me. Trust me.” When I looked in His eyes, all the anxiety disappeared and my circumstance resolved.
…And the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.
I learned a lesson years ago that means more to me now:
There is a reason for the wait.
Waiting is never easy, always uncomfortable and sacrifice is required. Well, I am not patient. I don’t wait well. However, when the next thing comes and I find myself waiting once again, it will be a little easier because I have this season to remember. The wait is always worth it!
After 5 months of rest, soul searching and learning to trust Jesus, I have accepted a position with a Faith-based medical clinic. I think God likes to show off if we but give him the opportunity!
Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face. And the things of Earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.